Paranoid Much??

Is there ever a situation you're in when you get really paranoid and even though you don't want to be, or even have any real reason to be, you can't help this crazy feeling you have that something is about you?

Let's say for the sake of argument I have this friend that I talk to and we have gotten a little closer as the weeks and months have passed and all of the sudden this friend stops talking to me as much as they were. Now, in this situation, what do I do? I become paranoid. I go over and over in my mind what the last few things, or actually everything, I've said to this person that would make them stop talking to me. And even though I can't think of anything, and even though I have information that shows it may have absolutely nothing to do with me at all, I still can't help but wonder.

This is a side of me that I *know* needs to be changed. And my goodness I am trying so hard not to be so "me" about this one, but it's just not working out so well for me. My issue is that if I ask this person and it turns out that it really doens't have anything to do with me, I feel like a complete and total ass for even worrying about it in the first place. Not to mention complete embarrassment for thinking it's all about me, me, me.

So, I've also as of late been working on the patience thing. So I'm thinking that I need to combine the two here and be patient, and maybe my friend will talk to me about why we haven't talked, and I'll find out it wasn't about me, and I'll be able to help said friend with whatever's going on with them. At the very least, be there for them and listen if they need to talk or vent or whatever. What if, though, it turns out to be about me after all?

Then what?



Oh and by the way, school is going great. Still getting an "A" average and actually understanding what I'm learning. LFMAO!!!!